Chicagoland Skydiving Center
June 14, 2013
Here's my instructor Mike and myself waiting for our turn to get on
If you're going to jump an idea is to see about getting on the plane first
because it is "first on last off" which means you're not rushed, you get
to watch everyone else fall away from the plane and you really get to enjoy
your time at the door.
It is time to go. For the weeks preceding the jump I'd get the thought
in my head "Oh my God you're going to JUMP"! The thought was an instant
of pure terror and could have easily worked into a massive anxiety attack
by the time I was to jump. Wanting to have a really amazing experience
and to be able to enjoy something that I had always wanted to do when the
panic would pop up I would just take a deep breath and say to myself:
"I'm going to fly. This is all going to be good"
I kept saying that and it was. I didn't need to work up the nerve
to jump. Before getting on the plane I didn't have any anxiety or
second thoughts. I was going to fly and it was all going to be good.
As we left the ground and I sat there crammed into the plane like a sardine
with all of the other jumpers a little panic attack kicked in but as soon
as Mike attached our harnesses and tightened up all of my straps a what
can only be described as blissful sense of peace washed over me and any
fear just melted away. The thought of leaving the plane was always
the most frightening experience for me not the falling but I had none of
that as I was ready to go but there was one thing that needed to happen
That one thing was to watch my brother Kevin jump out before me. One
second he was there and then...
...and then he was flying.
Ok to be accurate he was plunging 14,500 feet to the ground and accelerating
to about one hundred and thirty miles an hour. To me it was all about
flying and I was so ready for that.